Find Your Purpose

I grew up on the Northside of Houston in a hood they called "Gunspoint." I moved periodically as my mother struggled to maintain apartments since it was only her attempting to provide for 3 kids. I never had nice things, but I also never desired to live a life of luxury. I never experienced living inside of a house with my family. It seemed as if my entire family always struggled financially, so there was never anything I could learn from them in that aspect. As hard as it was my mother tried her best to raise us, but in my opinion there are certain things in life about manhood that no woman could teach you. Eager to leave home I joined the United States Marine Corps, my first encounter as an adult experiencing individuals of different backgrounds and cultures. I learned quickly how my upbringing hindered me and how it empowered me. I noticed that I always would lead the pack being in the best shape, but also I presented myself as a natural born leader that influenced others around me. I spent most of my time in the Marine hitting the gym during the week and getting drunk on the weekends. I used alcohol to cope with the stressors of the military (not being able to see family, friends) recreational use, and sometimes just out of pure boredom. It never occurred to me how severely wounded I was until I left the Marines and started to encounter other civilians. My trauma would arise in friendships, relationships, and even small altercations at work. I never trusted anyone because, I never trusted my parents to raise me. My entire life I grew up hyper-independent because I could never rely on anyone for guidance. I didn't realize these attributes were my strengths until I focused on healing those parts of myself.

I realized that what brings me pure joy in life is being the guidance to someone else that I did not have as a child. I consider myself a healer as I have healed myself and I teach others the tools they need to heal themselves. I believe God is using me as a vessel to guide ones who have childhood trauma in the right direction. Now my mission everyday is to impact, inspire, influence, and heal as many people as I can reach.